Covid blogging 2022

 i didnt expect to do this during my covid ( HL / work from home)... 

i been thinking alot lately what to do with my life 

really 

sometimes i just wonder did i make a wrong move for getting promoted as RGM

does this role even suitable for me?

well... i do think of something else 

something been on my mind lately

well... there's this guy we have chatting on msg, face to face talk and even video call 

just wondering does this guy like me also? or i just think too much? maybe? 

my friend say once he like a girl.. he will keep msg and talking to her... 

asking me to confess to him but... 

im not good in relationship... taking a step might our friendship... so i decided to stay behind him and support him in all the ways i can.. so ya ... i guess that shall be my decision so far... 

basically my plates are kinda full 

the lonely 23rd birthday

this year birthday is different ..
my 23rd birthday is like during my 17th birthday..
all by myself ..
wake up, watch show , sleep , order food delivery ..
just like a regular off day that i have ...
i guess the time cant turn back anymore ..
i have learn to adapt myself and being myself ..
dont need to worry about others ..
nowadays my daily routine is wake up , work , sleep.. this 3 ..
not much difference ..

everytime you asking me .. how are you? what you doing ? what you always busy?
to be honest... im just trying to distract myself ..
being a ordinary 23 year old girl always work & studying ..

just myself ...

this year my birthday wish is to be happy , smile , no worries , complete my bucketlist.. 

xoxo 
myself 

D-day in 2days

Every year I was looking forward to my birthday.. I guess this is the first time I'm gonna celebrate by myself.. I guess I need to get use to bring myself..

I'm having food poisoning since Thursday.. The pain is killing me..

hello ~

Its been awhile or maybe a long while back to this blog ..

well alot things happen to me ...
i am a different me now..
i learn to be strong and love myself again ..

a song that suits my mood right now ..

https://youtu.be/RwFi7wnH5W0

다시 너를 볼 수 있을까 다시
스쳐 지나가 버린 운명 앞에 서 있어
깨지 못할 꿈이었을까 우리
멀어지는 너에게 전하지 못했어
한번도
널 사랑해
내 깊은 마음속
Don’t let me cry
넌 닿으면 없어질 꿈
녹아내려 버릴 눈
네가 그리워질 때면
난 너가 돼 있었고
잡지 않았어 널 다시 올 줄 알고
그리워하다 보면
언젠가는 다시 볼 줄 알고
열병 같던 감정의 시작 끝
그 시작 끝에 서 있어
비상등처럼 어둠 속
혼자 우두커니 불 켜있어
아무리 생각해도 답은 넌데
가슴에 틀린 답을 적네
밀어내도 남아있어
어느새 꿈속에 와있어
I don’t wanna lose you
Be without you
Anymore
생각해도 모르겠어
너 없이 사는 법
I don’t wanna lose you
Be without you
Anymore
다시 너를 볼 수 있을까 다시
스쳐 지나가 버린 운명 앞에 서 있어
깨지 못할 꿈이었을까 우리
멀어지는 너에게 전하지 못했어
한번도
널 사랑해
내 깊은 마음속
Don’t let me cry
딱 하루 돌아갈 수 있다면
그 날로 나 살 수 있다면
널 아프게 한 말과
행동 되돌릴 수 있다면
널 덜 외롭게 하고
더 꽉 안을 수 있다면
미치게 후회스러운 그 하루
다시 내게 주어진다면
다시는 내게서 네 손
절대로 놓지 않을게 내가
넌 예쁘게만 피면 돼
널 위해서 가시가 될게 내가
빌어먹을 왜 몰랐을까
그때 널 잡았다면 달랐을까
난 어차피 넌데
널 떠나봤자 결국
어차피 넌데
I don’t wanna lose you
Be without you
Anymore
생각해도 모르겠어
너 없이 사는 법
I don’t wanna lose you
Be without you
Anymore
다시 너를 볼 수 있을까 다시
스쳐 지나가 버린
운명 앞에 서 있어
깨지 못할 꿈이었을까 우리
멀어지는 너에게 전하지 못했어
나의 마음을
아직도 울고 있잖아
Don’t let me cry
여기서 기다리잖아
가슴이 지치도록
Don’t say goodbye
내 곁에 돌아와
언제라도 찾아와

Korean lyrics translate to english 

Will I see you again?
I’m standing in front of destiny
That has passed me by again
Was it a dream that we couldn’t wake from?
You’re getting farther away and I couldn’t tell you
Not even once
I love you
Deep inside my heart
Don’t let me cry
You’re a dream that’ll disappear once I touch you
Like snow that melts
When I missed you, I became you
I didn’t hold onto you
Because I thought you’d come back
I thought I’d see you again if I kept longing for you
The start and end of my feverish feelings
I’m standing at the start and end
Like an emergency light
I’m the only one with the light on in the darkness
No matter how much I think about it, the answer is you
But I’m writing the wrong answer in my heart
I try pushing you out but you’re still there
And now you’re inside my dreams
(I don’t wanna lose you
Be without you
Anymore)
I thought hard but I don’t know
How to live without you
(I don’t wanna lose you
Be without you
Anymore)
Will I see you again?
I’m standing in front of destiny
That has passed me by again
Was it a dream that we couldn’t wake from?
You’re getting farther away and I couldn’t tell you
Not even once
I love you
Deep inside my heart
Don’t let me cry
If only I can go back for one day
If only I can live that day
If only I can turn back the words and actions that hurt you
If only I can make you less lonely and hug you tight
If only that day I crazily regret is given to me once more
I would never let go of your hand again
I only need you to beautifully bloom
I’ll be a thorn for you
Dammit, why didn’t I know back then?
If I held onto you, would things be different?
It’s you anyway for me
Even if I leave you, it’s you anyway
(I don’t wanna lose you
Be without you
Anymore)
I thought hard but I don’t know
How to live without you
(I don’t wanna lose you
Be without you
Anymore)
I’m standing in front of destiny
That has passed me by again
Was it a dream that we couldn’t wake from?
You’re getting farther away and I couldn’t tell you
My heart
I’m still crying
(Don’t let me cry)
I’m waiting right here
Until my heart gets exhausted
Don’t say goodbye
Come back to me
Come to me whenever

shanika learning journey ... part 1

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MY BREAD!!

PASTRY BASIC! 

04032012^^

wah!
its almost 2months that i never post something(:
maybe i should post something today(:

on 26feb 2012 me & hui shan went to Sistar and Boyfriend fanmeeting!!! OMG!!! its so fun^^
i wonder when can i get to go another fanmeeting which is like concert!!!
by the way...
one of wish fulfill!!! i'm going school soon in april^^
i'm in college west now!!!
a new school! a brand new start!
on 15 march i need to go pay my term fees and i can start my school life(:
ops... there's something i forget to say i'm in Pastry & Baking course(:
its a brand new course! i didn't intend to continue my art and i make a turn to Pastry & baking! a fresh new start^^
GOGOGO!!

04012012

woah! its seems to be a long time that i posted something!
its a brand new year and expecting quite alot of new things to be happen(:
things i need to pray for:
- going collage west
- continue my singing and go for audition.

but actually i was thinking why SM , YG, Dreamtea and many more doesnt come to singapore?!
실망 to them. i hope they could come to singapore.

IF ANYONE SAW THIS POST PLZ TELL WHICH AGENCY IS STILL HAVING AUDITION(:
A BIG THANKYOU IN ADVANCE^^